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| finally, a vacation.. at this point, im just glad too be getting away for some time. expecially, to florida. :) we're leaving on saturday morning around 4am. its all good. ill post more when i get there. goingg to sleep now. | | |
| things change - people change - things happen - LIFE HAPPENS. hm, as i sit here, i realize. my lifes never going to be the same as it was before. i changed, others changed, and its just completly differnt. many people tell me ill go back to being 'myself' again, but i think ive finally found myself. i guess it just takes some time to actually find that person your going to be in your lifetime. in the last month or so, ive become a completly different person. one who found God, who loves with all her heart, who tells her friends everything, who trys not to curse, and who is just .. me. you see, i thought i knew who God was, years ago. but it just took me some time. ive learned that by not telling my friends the things they should know, becomes a trust issue between us. well, its time to go now. its been awhile since i have written last, but thats that. thanks for listening. =) | | |
| so theres this boyy .. and just about everything about him makes me so much happier. like, when i know im going too see him, i freak out. i always wanna be "perfect" for him, because i want him to notice me the way he notices "her". and i kinda sorta know that will never happen, but in my dreams, we are together forever. the way he laughs, gives me the biggest butterflies, and the way he talks, makes me smile, and just about everything about him is amazingg. and i dont know what the hell too do , because im like freakingg out. haha. likee, hes simplyy gourgeus, and i dont know if anything else makes me happier latley then just too hear his voice, or too see him once a week. hes got those huge dimples, and that big ass smile, i just cant help myself. haha. dammmn , im so scared too get hurt , because i have a huge feeling i am going too sooner or later, but i would rather it be later. alot of people tell me im "obsessing" over him , but i thinkk i may sorta be in love with that little dirty blonde haired boy who i can never seem too get my mind off of. hes all im ever thinking about, and i cant even consentrate anymore, hes all of my thoughts and hes even in my dreams, haha. is this love or just a really bad cough of obbsession of liking him?! i need help, badd. haha. by the wayy peoples, this isnt a story . . its more like a diary entry sortaa thing. haha. | | |
| yeahh , so im not really good at this "blogging/writing" sorta stuff. so heres my little blogg thing for the day. mmk , well, i goot too talkk too my sister today on aim, whichh was loots of funn :D i goot my progress reports yesterday, not so much fun, i have alot of makeup workk too do, but its all good, whateverr . hmm, i drankk alot of caffiene this afternoon , and im not tierd, and my dads all like "goo too bed, right now..blah blah blah" ergggh , parents these dayys ! haha . well , at least i geet too leave them for a few days, haha. 8 moree days till christmas ! & 9 more days till i leavee for new jersey and neww yorkkk ! whooo hooo . ohhh bruhh . hahaa . well , imaa goo too bed , or at least tryy too . i lovee youu ! <33 | | |
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